“Be strong!”, “Have faith!”, “You’re the strongest woman I know!”, “I’m just here, We are here!”
That’s the most comforting words I hear from all the people around me.
It has been a year already. A year struggling for survival. Waking up each day trying to put all things up together. And that even crying lulls me to sleep at night. Each and every day I find and keep positive thoughts in my head just to make me go on with my life.
It was hard. Actually it is very hard. I cannot contain the lost. Not one, two, probably three.
Not long after the death of my mama, 2 weeks, TWO SHORT WEEKS I lost my papa. Both of them suffered from cancer.
Right after the burial, I thought coping was the hardest. It was, but then things didn’t stopped there.
I was sent out from our own house, I have to live and survive on my own.
Honestly, depression’s trying to consume my system. I don’t even recognize the will to live anymore.
It was terrible, I cannot afford to write it down in detail how terrible everything was. I lost one, two, probably three.
But, I’m trying to move on and live the best of life. I still got four and more. MY GOD, my only refuge and strength. My second brother, friends, the people around who loves me and who continues to believe and support me.
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. TIME HEALS. NEVER GIVE UP. I MUST GO ON. LIFE IS WONDERFUL!
Words I tattooed in my head.
I don’t close my doors. I even opened it widely to opportunities, new beginnings and reconciliation. Life’s too short to hold grudges. Well, we all are passing. Let’s just make the most out of everything. Simply ENJOY LIFE!
Now, as much as people tell me I’m TOUGH, I am determined to collect all my pieces and put it back together again. It might not be the perfect ME anymore but at least it’s something new. BROKEN, FLAWED but FIRM!
So you, Yes you! If your struggling with life. Don’t just give up, Never give up.
Because eventually? One day, you will just thank yourself for never giving up.
Life is tough, but WE ARE TOUGHER.
For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. ISAIAH 41:13